Our Family's Angel.

There is a new song out- well a semi-new song, that reminds me of our beautiful nephew who was too perfect for Earth. He died April 22, 2010 and it's still hard to cope with sometimes. Our nephew, Boston (Luca's oldest brother) said that he was born without eyes, so Luca had to go back to Heaven to get some. He was almost 4 at the time. I heard the song "If I Die Young" by The Band Perry on the radio (I don't know if I was extremely hormonal/emotional that day or what) but I started to bawling my eyes out while driving and listening it. It reminded me of our family's angel, Luca. I know my sister-in-law is still having a hard time with it and there is a verse in the song that makes me think of her..

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She'll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, No
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The thing is, my sister-in-law is one of the strongest, most kind and loving women I've ever met. She would do anything for anyone. When this happened I was shocked that this could happen to HER. She is such a good person. But then I thought to myself, if it had happened to me.. I honestly don't think I would be able to go on. She managed to pick herself up and be strong for her two living children. God gives us trials in life, but nothing that we cannot manage. He knew that she would take this heartbreak and turn it into a way to serve and help others. Her faith helped and is still helping her pull through. 

Luca, I know that you are watching us from Heaven. I know you were there to send off your beautiful cousins Khloë and Nakona as they made their way into our ever-growing family. I know you were watching from up above as Boston rode his brand new Shark Bike, and when Mac decided he was old enough for big boy underwear. I know you watch your mom, who takes her grief and puts all that energy into helping others in similar situations- and you are so proud of her. 

We love you Luca Deon Clemens. We miss you, we cherish you and we remember that you are waiting for us. You have made such an impact on so many lives and we are blessed to have an angel in Heaven who smiles down on us day after day. I know I'll feel your spirit as Spencer, Khloë and I are sealed in the temple next April and I know you will be proud of us for taking that huge step towards seeing you again. 

We love and miss you. xoxox.