Somebody Has to Say It.

         Marriage is no cake walk. There, I said it. It has nothing to do with commitment (trust me, we're committed), but everything to do with the fact that relationships are hard. There are two different opinions, two people coming from different backgrounds, two TOTALLY different personalities, and all this is being mushed together. It's almost like a ticking time bomb and as a couple we have to fix/deactivate it before it kills us.. or we kill each other haha. I know most newlyweds are head-over-heels about their spouse and trust me.. I love my husband more than anything. But holy cow I want to smack him upside the head. I'm sure he feels the same way about 90% of the time. 

         We were married October 16th of 2010. I was two months pregnant at the time (Yes, for all you judgmental people out there we KNOW we did this in the wrong order.) Thank goodness for our wonderful and supportive family and friends, I honestly don't know where we would be without you. Definitely not where we are now.

         Anywhoo, six months later out popped our little Khloë-bug. If there is one thing I can say, it's that nothing puts stress on a marriage like a newborn baby. Once the sleep deprivation kicks in (not to mention my out-of-control hormones which include endless crying, grouchy glares and taking everything personally) it's enough to make you want to pull your hair out. For all you mom's out there who say your children are little angels who never cry, never fuss, never misbehave.. you're full of crap. All babies have their moments. Our baby just happens to have her moments at 2 o' clock in the morning haha lucky for her, she is just so dang cute.

         It drives me nuts when I'm feeding Khloë in the middle of the night and I look over to see that Spencer is fast asleep. This guy can sleep through ANYTHING, literally. If our baby makes the slightest noise I am instantly awake, she can be screaming her lungs out and it wont even phase my husband! I got fed up one night and punched his leg really hard and do you know what he did? Yelled "OW!" in his sleep and rolled over. Thankfully, he's gotten much better about getting up in the night. I was getting so sleep deprived that my milk supply started to dry up.. but, thanks to my helpful hubby waking up throughout the night and some tips from my awesome sister-in-law Nat (and largely thanks to SLEEP!) we're back in the milk production business.


         It makes me sad because although Spence doesn't get to see Khloë as often as I do, she is already a daddy's girl. It really is the cutest thing though.. she will turn her head every which way trying to find him when she hears his voice. She loves to cuddle on his chest and yes, she will even smile for him when he tickles her. (I will try to get a video of this because it is just that precious :]) 

         Even though our marriage isn't perfect and often times is filled with unnecessary stress, I wouldn't have it any other way. I married the best man in the world and our baby is a huge blessing to us. I know we messed up in the beginning but things are finally starting to work out. Spencer will actually get to bless our little booger in August and Khloë will get to go through the San Diego temple with us next March/April. I must say that even though we have only been married seven months, we've had to deal with a lot of crap.. we're slowly but surely getting to where we want to be. Through the tears, the fights, the screaming baby, the late nights and all that's in between we are building a stronger relationship.. and that is a VERY good thing. <3
        

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